The Worst...[Please Check It Out]

[crypticpoet]

Alrighty.

So I was standing in my room thinking about my final work for my HSC (don't worry about what that is; for you non-Australians. It just means that I graduate) and I was pondering on how I was going to gather ideas. I'm not sure how much I'm allowed to disclose so this question may sound weird but just know that it's going towards a good purpose.

So I need to know: What is the most emotionally painful/exhausting thing you have ever--in your life--had to experience? If you aren't comfortable with mentioning it here, just feel free to throw in something that you believe would be one of the most horrible things you'd ever have to go through. Please take this seriously.

Remember, no one is obliged to say anything they aren't comfortable with.

[Bakerbum211]

Damn Ex's. They piss me off.

[spitwater]

ya especially ex's that cheat on you....

[McJesus]

When my uncle was in the hospital for like 8 months straight and ghhad 4 diff sergeries. My dad was going crazy

[spitwater]

another is also when you're parents are fighting and it last s for weeks and you think that they might get divorced.

[Bakerbum211]

When your ex cuts her self......

[pop38]

When my dad died. I was only 4 at the time, so I didn't really understand. It really hit me one day when I was 10 and I went over to my friends house and I saw my friend playing football with his dad. I didn't think about that until I got home, and when I got home and was thinking about my dad, I cried my eyes out. I was thinking it wasn't fair that all my friends had dads and I didn't get one. I don't think about it much now. I'm just used to not having a dad.

[crazy_dave]

My grandad dying. Worst day of my life i miss him so much. I tried not to cry and just kept it in and when we got to the cremation, they played some of his music he recorded himself(he was an awesome piano/organ player) and it killed me so bad.

[bmmetcalf]

For a year I have not had one month or one week where nothing bad happens. I have seen my grandparents die and go into comas and need to be hospitalized. My brother in trouble with the law and my brother at war. My uncle was killed way back in Iraq by just patrolling on foot and boom a explosin killed him and 2 other brave soldiers. I have seen troubles in my own life. Sex Drugs and Rock n Roll I have seen it all. My aunt being so stupid by moving in with a controlling freak. My aunt married to a guy with no job or income. My town being torn apart by methlabs. (My county has the largest methlabs in the state of Kansas) My friends moving or getting arrested. This past year has been ****ed up.

[Bakerbum211]

My grandad dying. Worst day of my life i miss him so much. I tried not to cry and just kept it in and when we got to the cremation, they played some of his music he recorded himself(he was an awesome piano/organ player) and it killed me so bad.


I know how it's going to feel. my grandpa is going to die VERY soon :-11:

[bmmetcalf]

My grandad dying. Worst day of my life i miss him so much. I tried not to cry and just kept it in and when we got to the cremation, they played some of his music he recorded himself(he was an awesome piano/organ player) and it killed me so bad.
Ya its alright to cry. I tried to keep it in too but there was no way. We have open caskets and theres no way I am able to go up there. When people leave I just head to back of the room instead of walking by. It just hurts too bad.

[almost a regula]

how much i get picked on, its all i ever do.(listens to linkon park)

[crypticpoet]

I'm so sorry to hear about all of this, everyone.

I don't really care anymore how much I'm allowed to disclose; because I was moved by what you've written.

I'm doing a short story for my Final Work for my HSC. See, I do the highest level of English that I can do for the Preliminary course, and then I move on to the highest level of English that can be studied where I am. For that particular course, there is a major work of certain choices. I can't remember what all of them are, but I have chosen to do a short story. I didn't want a stupid little cliché that so many other Extension 2 English students had done in the past. I didn't want to do a topic that had already been covered. I want to do something that really hits home for people; something that'll really move the examiners. So I thought "why not turn to RR for international experiences?"

See, to me, the war in Iraq was just something that was happening very far away from me that I would hear about in the news. It is so far from me that it feels almost fictional--like it's not real. But after reading what you wrote up there, bmmet, it hit me right at the core. And that's what I do to write. I exact from the sensetivity I gain from hearing about what other people have to go through. You'll never know how much you guys are helping.

almost_a__regula, you're a champion. I've assumed that you may be young...because I've been a Christian most of my life, and I used to get picked on when I was younger. Then people start to grow up a little. Don't worry, it won't last long. Now I get more respect for it, rather than being bullied for it.

My deepest sympathies, and my deepest gratitude. Thanks for the input so far, and please, keep them coming.

[bmmetcalf]

Thx, I hope it all goes well. Ya theres wars going on in the world that I just dont pay attention to but really there are people affected by them. Sorry for the others losses and troubles.

[almost a regula]

im the youngest in a family with 9 children, plus i have a social disorder called aspergers.aspergers is a form of autism, kids with aspergers suffer more rejection from there peers than you could imagine. let me break it down for you,aspergers is based mainly on feelings if i feel good then i do better at everything,it even effects growth, but if i feel bad then its the opposite here is my avarage day,i go to hangout with some kids, because of my bad socialization skills and strange behavior the kids reject me, sometimes ill get a few punches thrown im told to move on cause im not wanted, so now im feeling bad and performing worse affecting everything including my grades, the rest of the day is the same thing with me leaving worse and worse and performing even worse than i did before by the end of my first day with that community every one nows me, and everyone hates me. look it up, there is way more to it than i explained.

[almost a regula]

yeah it sucks, but regular kids get sucked into more crap than me

[360degrees]

When I was young, my parents had a fight, I mean a real fight as in my dad could have killed my mum, my dad punched his fist through almost every door in our house and my mum threw this clock my dad's mother had given us out of the window. And I was just sat on the floor crying, I stayed at my grans for weeks after that, and so I got on really well with her, we became almost like best friends at the time. Then gradually I stopped agnoledging (sp.) she existed basically. Now last january she died and becasue I knew I'd ignored her physical/mental problems, it just tore me up inside. I actually considered ending my own life, this lasted for about 2 weeks, then my uncle told me to get my act together and I was fine. But a few months ago, my mum dealt me a huge guilt trip about how I didn't care about my gran, now she's gone I'm only feeling sorry for myself. That hurt me more than anything.

Also at the funeral, my cousin sang a song, and I was too scared even to say a few words because I hate crying, and I knew it would happen. My cousin barely saw my gran, even less than I did, which occured to me is why he could get up and sing for her. I guess I cared so much that I tried to block emotion from my gran.

I still feel like shit about it but my uncle was right about 'getting my act together'.

[FIGHT!]

I think the heaviest moment I can recall was the very instant my mortality REALLY was in my face. It was 5 years ago, my wife was giving me a hug and as she rubbed my back, she said "What's this?" and stated she felt a lump on my back. I reached around and felt this HUGE lump in my back. My heart stopped, I almost fainted... "well this is it"
I thought, cancer, a tumor, I am going to die... this actually created an anxiety problem I still deal with today.
It turned out it was something called a Lipoma, a fatty, non cancerous tumor and I had it removed.

But ever since that day, I am VERY aware I could die at any moment,

[loganownzj00]

When you try so ****ing hard to make it work with someone. They try so hard too. I tried forever to make it work with this one person. She just never did trust me. So 11 months into it, I was just like..."Sorry, this will never work." We both broke down after that for the next 2 months. My grades went from A's and B's to D's and F's. It really hurt us both so much that we haven't talked since. It's been like 8 months since it happened too.

My mother also is so stressed out sometimes. She can black out at any given moment. (Even while driving.) The doctor told her to quit her job and stay home for as long as it takes. She said no because she wanted my sister and I to go to a good college and shit. So everyday I might argue with her and later it gets me guilty pretty bad.

[KBobb2009]

Back somewhere around 3rd grade my parents got divorced. Right after 4th grade started, my dad moved from his appartment in Manhattan to Clay Center. That move made me have to change schools, and go to an elementary school where I didn't know anybody.
Right after 5th grade started, my dad moved again to Melvern to get re-married. He asked me if I was okay with it, and I'm really glad that he did, so I said yeah, I'd be fine with that. However I barely knew my new step-mother at the time, because I had only seen her twice. She was really nice then, probably because she had company over and only had 5 kids, and only 2/3 living with her. But once we moved in there, she got really mean, and adopted 3 more kids and became a foster parent, along with my dad. So now I really hate it at that house, but I am forced to go back there on a regular basis because of custodial reasons.

[Sk8 Shorty's]

- when i loved my g/f before we broke up, she didnt love me back.

- when my ex g/f cheated on me.

but the thing that made me really sad-

i was around 4 to 5 years old, and i looked up to my dad, i thought he was the best dad in the world, and i thought highly of him, we would play alot of sports together, and he would teach me alot of things........... then one day i heard from my mom that because of all the fighting and stuff going on they were going to divorce, i couldnt believe it, i was shocked, and i cried alot. My mom never told me what the "other stuff" was, but 10 years after she finally told me that my dad had been molesting my sister a couple times, and because of that i dont ever see him again, he was in prison for about 10-14 years, and he got out a couple months ago, and now hes on Probation, and my whole family is afraid hell come over here or something and try talking to us or something, but so far that hasnt happened, and hopefully he learned his lesson. and also cause he molested my sister, my sister thinks really low of men/guys, and now shes a lesbian, no joke at all. because my dad made stupid dumbass mistakes, we dont have that much money, but the one good thing, it seems like were more of a family without him.

[Mr.42]

My story is a little too weird. I'll just PM you. Hope you can use the basic plot for your story (or maybe just part of it).

[AdioBird52]

Damn, I wanna hear it!

When I was 10-ish, my great-grandpa died. I'd known him really well for all of my life, and he would play with me, give me things, the whole nine yards. He even let us run around his house, in his attic, basement, everywhere. He was in a nursing home for a while, then he was moved to the hospital. Then, my great-grandpa died at the age of 90. I had thought he was invincible.

[falloffboy101]

When my great-gran died I thought she was just some boring old coot, but when she died all her family were talking at the dinner after the funeral, and I found out a whole lot of stuff about her and how she was really strong at heart and would always make awkward times as funny as possible, and all this other great stuff about her. I almost couldn't take it, the guilt was so bad. I went round the block from her house (thats where we were meeting) and eventually I just broke down crying.
Also, when my mum told me she had MS. It wasn't so much the fact she had it, it was the fact she'd kept it secret from me and my sister for 5 years before she told us, because it's so serious.
Or when my mum takes benders for no reason, she comes home from work with that look on her face (you know the one I mean) and she is just really silent, then I say something and she explodes in my face, that hurts a lot. That's why I try to get out of the house as much as possible.

BTW, Dan, I had one of them on my hand, I found it and I was like "WTF?????///" but then the doctor dismissed it as a gangleon (sp), just a little lump of fat and it would eventually go away. I was freaked when I discovered it, though.

These stories are pretty harsh, I feel for you guys.

[gmgsci]

I'd say right now.

I moved from my childhood home, parents in divorce, troubles with girlfriend, in need of new shoes, dog walked off, cat ran away, brothers nearly got busted for drug-possesion, my dad smokes the dope, my mom has alcoholic problems.

Fine'

[Blind Sheppard]

Getting diabetes then being diagnosed with meningitis.

[FlashFlip]

When your ex cuts her self......
ooo, my best friend had that, sorry dude

i used to have like an OCD type of thing, where i would like force myself to think about wierd and sick things, ya it sucked

[Ree123]

Sitting in the car for 14 hours

[mcwattersm]

Last year. I friend introduced me to this girl, he said that she was really cool and pretty. So I talked to her on msn and we really hit it off. We talk and talk, I never met her but I loved her. Being an idiot I asked her out, then suddenly her brother and two sisters died by a drive by shooting. She moved on, what ever. For months we tried to get together but somthing almost always happened why we couldn't. So after a few weeks I though something was up. It turns out she was some overweight 12 yearold who had brothers and sisters, but they definatley didn't die. She just decided to tell me one day followed by a "whats up?" like I'd be fine with it. It crushed me, I didn't know who this girl was. I couldn't trust her. Man, I loved her so much.


My Grandparents got into a car accident when I was 10. My grandmother was seriously injured, she had brain damage and she would never remember me again. It hurt, but I didn't really get into my head. The next day I got a call, and she had passed away, I really hurt because we were so close. I was so sad I didn't goto school for a week, and I couldn't goto her funeral because I couldn't stand it. I would of probably thrown up or somthing worst. The worst part of it was I never got to say good bye, and it still eats me up inside from time to time. She always used to give me a loonie everytime she saw me, and when my mom went to see her in the hospital she gave my mom a 5 dollars (Before she went into a coma) and my mom gave it to me. But I couldn't accept it, so I told my mom to give it back. I wanted to goto the hospital and see her, but they wouldn't let me, saying I was to younge. So it just really hurt not being able to say good bye to her, and I feal so bad for not going to her funeral to see her one last time.

I guess the last one is more of a sob story than the last, to me it is.

Anyways, good luck with your work, hope you do well.

[China Skate]

When my grandma passed. I still miss her.

[kcirtap]

when my sister ran away, she was gone for around 4 days and i couldnt sleep at night cuz i knew she could be anywhere.....

[Dookie416]

wow im gonna ****ing cry cause of what you all have to go through. i dont have to go through much. my parents arent rapists or alcoholics, all i have to deal with are the things that happen naturally, deaths from age, but my cat got sick and died after only a year of having him, it didnt really make me sad or anything, it seemed like the cat didnt like me, he ran away from me all the time, it was weird. but i have a new cat, ive had for a year or so, and she loves me. i am really sorry for all these things you have to go through, i feel so lucky

[McJesus]

also my best friend got into drugs and basically ruined his life, i felt like i had to get into drugs but i didnt, i got torn apart by not having a good friend, i felt like such an outcast when all my other friends did drugs and then my grades got crappy but so far i got a lot of much better friends and my grades went up

[Sk8 Till Death]

Wow, i feel so sorry for all of u guys, im with dookie416, only natural things happen to me, but recently, my uncle was diagnosed with cancer in his throat, they did all they could for him and just wen every1 thought he was gona die, the tumor got smaller, and so far, hes not gona die anytime soon. sorry if i offended sum of u with a happish story.Mcwattersm, wow, those r very horrible things, shame on that girl, u no, u could press charges on her for impersonating some1 who she isnt, just so u no.

[Sk8 Till Death]

**** *****, wow, i read the second page and thought it was bad, the 1st page, ********, thats horrible!!!! i think im gona cry...........

[Dookie416]

dude i was seriously about to cry after i heard those things. i cant express how sorry i am for you guys.

[Sk8 Shorty's]

dude i was seriously about to cry after i heard those things. i cant express how sorry i am for you guys.

i know how u feel man, im really glad u have some feelings unlike alot of people out there that love to find pain and suffering in other peoples lives. i appreciate the fact that u are sorry for us, im also with u 2, i feel really sad about what happened to u guys also.

[crypticpoet]

Far out. I feel disgusting. Not like, a discusted disgusting (um.) but like...a good disgusting. Like, extremely sympathetic. I'm starting to think this thread was a good idea; because when I first put it up, I thought it might sound selfish somehow.

Now that it's up and going, I think it's a good thing. Because it's one of those times where you can just say what you want and know people aren't going to judge you. I know that for sure, otherwise no one would have posted here.

I feel I have to contribute.

I, like many, have had a lot--and I mean, a LOT--of things happen that aren't...they aren't "natural" wrongs. I've had a lot of experiences with men that have just made me generally hostile towards any guy that tries to hit it off with me. It sucks to be that way, and I'm trying to change. Anyway, I'm not really prepared to give the entire story, but it started when my father left when I was four years old. I don't remember anything other than hanging onto his leg like you would to a rope if you were dangling off a cliff so high that the bottom was out of sight. I was screaming as loud as my lungs would allow without collapsing, just begging him with all of my strength not to leave us. Honestly, the tears just flooded my eyes. I hadn't taken any notice of the fights prior to my gripping his leg, but I just knew, in this moment, that he was leaving. I begged...
He flashed a look at me. A quick, angry, unbearable look. Then he stared ahead as he kicked me off his leg like an annoying dog, and stormed out the door. I sat there silently. Inside, I was screaming. But there was no need to scream on the outside anymore, because I knew he was refusing to hear me.

I tried for twelve years to make amends with my father. I was made to feel like I was the one to blame. Then not long ago, we just had a huge fight...and it signified finality. I never have spoken to him since, and I never plan on speaking to him.

Keep the stories coming, guys. So heartbreakingly inspiring.

[McJesus]

Its better to get stuff out than trap it inside

[pop38]

I don't really know if this is all that bad, but I can't seem to make friends with the people at my church. They treat me like I'm an alien or something because I don't listen to all Christian music. The only Christain music I like is Haste the Day, As I Lay Dying, Norma Jean, stuff like that. I can't stand that slow stuff. I wear mostly black t-shirts because I like that color, and I wear jeans, and they call me "goth." God welcomes everyone into his house, regardless of age, race, appearace, etc. I don't feel like I should be looked at weird because I don't dress like a prep like everyone at my church does.

EDIT- The church I go to is a youth church for teenagers, but it's part of a regular church.

[Sk8 Shorty's]

Its better to get stuff out than trap it inside
right on mcjesus, i totally agree with u there.

[crypticpoet]

I don't really know if this is all that bad, but I can't seem to make friends with the people at my church. They treat me like I'm an alien or something because I don't listen to all Christian music. The only Christain music I like is Haste the Day, As I Lay Dying, Norma Jean, stuff like that. I can't stand that slow stuff. I wear mostly black t-shirts because I like that color, and I wear jeans, and they call me "goth." God welcomes everyone into his house, regardless of age, race, appearace, etc. I don't feel like I should be looked at weird because I don't dress like a prep like everyone at my church does.

EDIT- The church I go to is a youth church for teenagers, but it's part of a regular church.

Listen to Dead Poetic and Killswitch Engage. They completely change the name of Christian music.

It's odd that your church would feel that way about you; I'm not sure how to answer that. Maybe you need to open up to them more; tell them how you feel about God and such?

[pop38]

Well there's this one kid who's pretty cool. He skates and he has one of them boards from the 80s, but the trucks are attached to the board via huge staples. Anyway, I've tried to be friends with him, but he's friends with the crowd that doesn't like me, so he just goes along with them.

[FoosBall Skater]

Getting diabetes then being diagnosed with meningitis.


Dude, thats horrible, im sorry. diabetes is bad enough, but meningitis? Damn.


These storys make me feel so sad.

[360degrees]

Getting diabetes then being diagnosed with meningitis.

How old were you when you 'got' Diabetes. Because earlier this year my cousin got it. It really sucks, he looks constantly pale and pasty. My uncle has had it since he was 6 as well and my gran had it also, same grandmother who died in my other tale of misfortune.

Which reminds me, I did happen to see her a few times before she died, mainly because I was forced to, to this day no-one was sure of what was up with her, but she basically went mental and I'd tell you the story she came up with but you'd laugh in places and I don't want you laughing at something as sick and twisted as that.

Some of your stories make me cry on the inside. I can epathise with Dave because I know how low he was at the time, he just showed it so much. But all of you with girl problems, it may be a bit shitty for you but you CAN get over that stuff, but like Dan and his Lipoma, that must have been real shit-scary, man. What I'm trying to say is that my story just seems nothing compared to some of this stuff.

Also Matt (McW), that must have been a huge shock, this may sound weird but like the year before last I had a similar experience, I was on WinMX on the TEENAGERS chatrooms, and someone sends me a PM with an addy so I add them. They say they are 15 (I was 14), female and from the UK. So we talked for a while and I got to know 'her' and then one day we decided we were to meet and for some rason i couldn't, parents or something. So we still talk for like a few weeks then 'she' decideds to tell me she's a 34 year old man. That was sick. I mean I was 14. What could I do, I told my parents and my dad threatened to kill him, he apologised but that just wasn't enough. My mum called the cops but whether they ever found him or not, begs to be questioned. Homeosexual Paedophilia. Sick.

[crazy_dave]

The thing is, his dad actually would of killed him. He's an ex marine no?

[Blind Sheppard]

How old were you when you 'got' Diabetes. Because earlier this year my cousin got it. It really sucks, he looks constantly pale and pasty. My uncle has had it since he was 6 as well and my gran had it also, same grandmother who died in my other tale of misfortune.



It was Christmas Eve year 6 so i think that would of been 99 or something like that. It's a bit of a kick in the crotch but nothing that big to be honest, people have worse things.

[FIGHT!]

I, like many, have had a lot--and I mean, a LOT--of things happen that aren't...they aren't "natural" wrongs. I've had a lot of experiences with men that have just made me generally hostile towards any guy that tries to hit it off with me. It sucks to be that way, and I'm trying to change. Anyway, I'm not really prepared to give the entire story, but it started when my father left when I was four years old. I don't remember anything other than hanging onto his leg like you would to a rope if you were dangling off a cliff so high that the bottom was out of sight. I was screaming as loud as my lungs would allow without collapsing, just begging him with all of my strength not to leave us. Honestly, the tears just flooded my eyes. I hadn't taken any notice of the fights prior to my gripping his leg, but I just knew, in this moment, that he was leaving. I begged...
He flashed a look at me. A quick, angry, unbearable look. Then he stared ahead as he kicked me off his leg like an annoying dog, and stormed out the door. I sat there silently. Inside, I was screaming. But there was no need to scream on the outside anymore, because I knew he was refusing to hear me.

That story kills me, I have a 4yo, and I could never imagine doing that to him.

[Mr.42]

http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/en/8/82/CryingIndian.jpg

This thread is cool, yo. Everybody has some sort of story like this, but there's never any place to tell it. So it's cool to have a place where your story can be relevant and people will read it.

[Dookie416]

I was on WinMX on the TEENAGERS chatrooms, and someone sends me a PM with an addy so I add them. They say they are 15 (I was 14), female and from the UK. So we talked for a while and I got to know 'her' and then one day we decided we were to meet and for some rason i couldn't, parents or something. So we still talk for like a few weeks then 'she' decideds to tell me she's a 34 year old man. That was sick. I mean I was 14. What could I do, I told my parents and my dad threatened to kill him, he apologised but that just wasn't enough. My mum called the cops but whether they ever found him or not, begs to be questioned. Homeosexual Paedophilia. Sick.

I would just stick to people that can basically prove they are who they are, like occassionally kids on rr IM me, and they are asking for real help or questions, about skating, but getting to know some random person.. that's kinda a bad idea.

[shad0w]

im the youngest in a family with 9 children, plus i have a social disorder called aspergers.aspergers is a form of autism, kids with aspergers suffer more rejection from there peers than you could imagine. let me break it down for you,aspergers is based mainly on feelings if i feel good then i do better at everything,it even effects growth, but if i feel bad then its the opposite here is my avarage day,i go to hangout with some kids, because of my bad socialization skills and strange behavior the kids reject me, sometimes ill get a few punches thrown im told to move on cause im not wanted, so now im feeling bad and performing worse affecting everything including my grades, the rest of the day is the same thing with me leaving worse and worse and performing even worse than i did before by the end of my first day with that community every one nows me, and everyone hates me. look it up, there is way more to it than i explained.

Whoa...you sound like me when I was in 7th grade. No offence or anything.

[McJesus]

My dad yells at me all the time for the littlest things, i ****in HATE him

[StevoElSupremo]

well emotionally its trying to tell ur G/F its over :-42:

physically its goin for a new belt in Karate, thats one hell of a workout

[crypticpoet]

The ideas are wonderful. I've made a list of things I could write about but I'd like to make it longer, and I think this thread is doing well anyway. When I have more time--seeing as there's a lot of talk about internet relationships--I've got a sappy story for you all. Keep 'em coming, guys.

[mcwattersm]

If it makes you feal any better, I never met my dad. Once my mom got pregnate, he left her, he couldn't handle the responsibility I so he left. He moved to Italy and never payed my mother one single child care check, so she alone had to raise me. She had little education and came from a poor, large family, so she couldn't goto college/university. She couldn't get a decent job, so she could raise me properly. We lived on top of a law office down town for a few years. My mom than moved us into apartment building where I lived untill I was 3. Then I moved to where I am now. I've lived here for 10+ years. I have not heard a single word from my father, I have never had a father figure in my life. I have never gone out and learned how to throw a baseball, or make a birdhouse, or learned how to golf. You know its sad when you don't know your own birth father's first name, never mind his last. I swear if I ever saw him, I'd kick the shit out of him, it don't matter how much bigger he is than I, I wouldn't give a care in the world. I would just want to see him in pain, just like my mom was for the first good part of my life.

[crypticpoet]

I know exactly how you feel, just in a slightly different context. I may as well have never met my father.

Year after year was pretty much silence, but then I had a fight with my mum and had nowhere else to go but his place where he was living with my step mum and step brother. Well...we didn't get along at all. If he wasn't yelling at me, he wasn't home. He hit me, and my step mother hated me, too. I was made to believe for years that it was my fault--because I never contacted my father or tried to see him; I was the one to blame. I think there's a problem with that, because he's the father and I'm the daughter. He should have been the one trying to contact me, and it wasn't my fault at all....gosh, I was a little girl...for crying out loud..I felt so guilty for all those years.

It was only Christmas last year that I came to this realization. He suddenly showed up at work and said "are you coming to see me on Christmas day?"
"Yes. Is it okay if you can give me a lift down to your place?"
"Hmm...I'll see if your brother can do it."
"Why can't you?"
"It means I can't drink all day if I have to pick you up."
I just stood there, gaping. It showed me where his priorities were. I was seething, but I didn't say anything.

A few months ago, I called him just to say hi; because I decided to try and make amends with him. He didn't answer, then called back later that night and said,
"What did you want?"
"Just to hang out..."
"You only usually call when you want something."
It flared up from there, and he ended up telling me that I didn't need a father. So I took those words on. I guess he was right. I guess I didn't. I've lived without him for most of my life...so it's not...it's not like this pain of losing someone. It's the pain of realizing that they were never really there.

I feel your pain, Matt. We're sort of on the same level. If I ever saw my father again, I'd castrate him. I hate the guy.

[almost a regula]

If it makes you feal any better, I never met my dad. Once my mom got pregnate, he left her, he couldn't handle the responsibility I so he left. He moved to Italy and never payed my mother one single child care check, so she alone had to raise me. She had little education and came from a poor, large family, so she couldn't goto college/university. She couldn't get a decent job, so she could raise me properly. We lived on top of a law office down town for a few years. My mom than moved us into apartment building where I lived untill I was 3. Then I moved to where I am now. I've lived here for 10+ years. I have not heard a single word from my father, I have never had a father figure in my life. I have never gone out and learned how to throw a baseball, or make a birdhouse, or learned how to golf. You know its sad when you don't know your own birth father's first name, never mind his last. I swear if I ever saw him, I'd kick the shit out of him, it don't matter how much bigger he is than I, I wouldn't give a care in the world. I would just want to see him in pain, just like my mom was for the first good part of my life.

my 3 yr old nephew's da sheated on my sister when she was pregnant with there baby, he only saw him once or twice, last i heard he was in jail for beating his last girlfriend.
my nephews life is going to suck, he doesnt really have a stationary home or life hes always moving from house to house living with different familys, he sees his mom just as much as he sees everyone else, me and one of my other sisters our his favorites, his mom spoils the crap out of him, evertime i see him i dont just share my stuff with him it becomes his, and to him theres no sharing he gets what he wants when he wants, and i fear he wont find god.

[almost a regula]

his mom was born when are mom was 16, his dad treats her terribly and she grew up like he is growing up. id really hate for him to end up like her, i feel like its me who should teach him lifes lesons, cause no one else will.

[pop38]

I kind of know how you feel, mcwattersm. I don't have a dad around to do stuff. I don't hate my dad because he's gone. But from what I remember all he did was go to work, play video games, and get drunk.

[bmmetcalf]

My 20 month year old cousin I think is going to have it hard. Well my aunt was married to a guy in the army. (My uncle that I thought was a pretty cool guy.) I respected him alot when I hung out with him. She is kinda weird. She is into weird shit. Well she cheated on him and then he went to war. She still cheated on him. He ended up being killed. You think she cared? (Hell it didnt seem like it all she did.) Well when my grandpa found out she cheated on him and was pregnate he was angry. The baby came not knowing if its father was dead or alive or even going to find out he was a father. She was always talking about HER BABY AND HER BABY that. She was hardly there when she was a baby and even now she is gone doing drugs and sleeping around. My cuz lived with my grandpa and my grandma. Well my grandma goes into a coma. He has no time to take care of his wife, baby, or even himself but he did it. I respect my grandpa alot. I even hung out at his house to help him and played with the baby. She is the happiest baby you could see. She already knows my name and can pick me out in a random picture and say my name. She loves her grandpa. When her mom does come around my cuz doesnt seem as happy to see her than me. She may be the happiest baby now but when she grows up she is gonna know that its not right not having your mom around and she will always wonder who her dad is and if he is even alive. All she has is family now. We love her to death and we care for her.

[goofy m3ng]

My 20 month year old cousin I think is going to have it hard. Well my aunt was married to a guy in the army. (My uncle that I thought was a pretty cool guy.) I respected him alot when I hung out with him. She is kinda weird. She is into weird shit. Well she cheated on him and then he went to war. She still cheated on him. He ended up being killed. You think she cared? (Hell it didnt seem like it all she did.) Well when my grandpa found out she cheated on him and was pregnate he was angry. The baby came not knowing if its father was dead or alive or even going to find out he was a father. She was always talking about HER BABY AND HER BABY that. She was hardly there when she was a baby and even now she is gone doing drugs and sleeping around. My cuz lived with my grandpa and my grandma. Well my grandma goes into a coma. He has no time to take care of his wife, baby, or even himself but he did it. I respect my grandpa alot. I even hung out at his house to help him and played with the baby. She is the happiest baby you could see. She already knows my name and can pick me out in a random picture and say my name. She loves her grandpa. When her mom does come around my cuz doesnt seem as happy to see her than me. She may be the happiest baby now but when she grows up she is gonna know that its not right not having your mom around and she will always wonder who her dad is and if he is even alive. All she has is family now. We love her to death and we care for her.

Shit dude, imagine not knowing ur dad ever. I like feel fr u all so much it feels like im gonna cry cause then i think about people. heck im crying right now. I dunno, i think about people in my life when i read your stories. It just makes me real sad. I actually do think this should be pinned (stickied)

[crypticpoet]

Alright, goofy. Pinned at your discretion. (...I think it should be, too.)

[Sk8 Shorty's]

I hate having feelings for someone and caring for someone, and i never get the same feelings, emotions, or care from the person im giving it to, it sux major ass, my past 2 g/f's were like that, they didnt care, they didnt show any emotion or love towards me as i did towards them..... they just cared about their own feelings. its funny how girls think all guys are jerks, but im starting to think that all girls are jerks to, and only care about their own feelings. cause for me ive only found one girl so far that actually shows the same care and love towards me as i do towards her, and shes my g/f right now.

[GrizzledJASPER]

/\ I used to get too attached to girls like that, then after me and this one chick I obsessed over for a while dated for like 2 years, i realized I was way too young to be acting like that, and i had wasted a lot of time worryin about bitches that didnt really even matter to me after all. Just go with the flow man. If you've gotta force something too much, it probably isnt worth bothering with.

[Sk8 Shorty's]

yeah Jasper, ive realized now that i get to "attached" and i fall easily in love and shit like that, and i shouldnt be but i guess sometimes i cant help it for some reason. but im starting to quit im getting better at not showing as much emotion and not acting obsessed.

[Dookie416]

My 20 month year old cousin I think is going to have it hard. Well my aunt was married to a guy in the army. (My uncle that I thought was a pretty cool guy.) I respected him alot when I hung out with him. She is kinda weird. She is into weird shit. Well she cheated on him and then he went to war. She still cheated on him. He ended up being killed. You think she cared? (Hell it didnt seem like it all she did.) Well when my grandpa found out she cheated on him and was pregnate he was angry. The baby came not knowing if its father was dead or alive or even going to find out he was a father. She was always talking about HER BABY AND HER BABY that. She was hardly there when she was a baby and even now she is gone doing drugs and sleeping around. My cuz lived with my grandpa and my grandma. Well my grandma goes into a coma. He has no time to take care of his wife, baby, or even himself but he did it. I respect my grandpa alot. I even hung out at his house to help him and played with the baby. She is the happiest baby you could see. She already knows my name and can pick me out in a random picture and say my name. She loves her grandpa. When her mom does come around my cuz doesnt seem as happy to see her than me. She may be the happiest baby now but when she grows up she is gonna know that its not right not having your mom around and she will always wonder who her dad is and if he is even alive. All she has is family now. We love her to death and we care for her.

i dont think whe grows up that she will feel unfortunate to not have either parents around, because she'll realize how much the people that are around here love her, and she'll grow up to be a great person.

[sk8erdude333]

man i feel bad for everyone, this stuff sounds horrible, my only thing was when my parents got divorced which wasnt all that bad because i moved with my dad and bonded with him and we became best friends. the only thing bad about it was when my step mom(which is really cool) and my mom always argue.

[bmmetcalf]

i dont think whe grows up that she will feel unfortunate to not have either parents around, because she'll realize how much the people that are around here love her, and she'll grow up to be a great person.
Ya, my mom calls her gods gift and says she came for a reason. When everything started going down hill she came and gave us a reason to happy again. I love her to death.
http://i16.photobucket.com/albums/b34/blackrosefantasies/audreyeaster2.jpg http://i16.photobucket.com/albums/b34/blackrosefantasies/PunkBabyAudrey.jpg

[crypticpoet]

^^ She's going to be a very beautiful woman, I can tell.

About this whole thing with men/women and falling in love...I agree. Guys suck, and girls suck. Girls can be worse than guys, yes, but I do think guys...more often than not...are worse.

From my relationship experience, sometimes guys can do things without even knowing, that can hurt the girl. Then the girl, obviously, is hurt by it, but doesn't want to seem nagging to the guy for fear of losing him; so she shuts it all up inside of her, but it leaks out in her outward actions. She's not as close to you anymore, she doesnt talk to you that much anymore, she gets angry with you easily...things like that. You just have to get her aside and sit her down and say "what the hell is happening?" unlike my stupid ass ex boyfriend. GRR.

However. Often girls are just stupid sluts and are in it for the physical side. People like that...don't waste your time. That's why I don't waste my time with guys. I won't date someone unless I truly see something worth being with. Like, truly.

[winnipegdizzle]

I really have had a good life. Sometimes I think it's bad when my dad yells at me or something, but reading these made me realize a lot more. One of the worst things that happened was moving to Canada. When I was 4, I moved to Poland. I lived there until I was 10. I pretty much grew up there, and all my best friends were there, and my favourite memories. When I talk to those people now it isn't the same. They have changed; one being a goth who writes poems about killing and raping people, others just not remebering me the way I remeber them.

[McJesus]

^^ She's going to be a very beautiful woman, I can tell.

About this whole thing with men/women and falling in love...I agree. Guys suck, and girls suck. Girls can be worse than guys, yes, but I do think guys...more often than not...are worse.

From my relationship experience, sometimes guys can do things without even knowing, that can hurt the girl. Then the girl, obviously, is hurt by it, but doesn't want to seem nagging to the guy for fear of losing him; so she shuts it all up inside of her, but it leaks out in her outward actions. She's not as close to you anymore, she doesnt talk to you that much anymore, she gets angry with you easily...things like that. You just have to get her aside and sit her down and say "what the hell is happening?" unlike my stupid ass ex boyfriend. GRR.

However. Often girls are just stupid sluts and are in it for the physical side. People like that...don't waste your time. That's why I don't waste my time with guys. I won't date someone unless I truly see something worth being with. Like, truly.

I didnt know all that stuff went through a girls head. I think ill try to be more tuned into that now.

[gmgsci]

I won't date someone unless I truly see something worth being with. Like, truly.

Oh yeah, call me up.

[crypticpoet]

I didnt know all that stuff went through a girls head. I think ill try to be more tuned into that now.

You know the number one problem I had with my ex boyfriend? I never, ever knew what was going on inside of his head. I would ask him, but he'd never tell me. It's like he was happy all the time...and when he broke up with me, it was the hugest; most painful shock...because he'd shut me out so much, I just assumed he was happy, as shallow as that might sound. If there's one thing I can say to you: make sure you let each other know how you feel. Don't get her feelings out of her and then expect to be able to shut off from her. Make sure you talk to her, that's what she's there for...

[mcwattersm]

I don't get it?

[crypticpoet]

I think he's...jealous?

[bmmetcalf]

Ah it was one of the spammers we had.

[crypticpoet]

So it was :D *destroys*.

Just while we're on the topic, the flooding of spammers we had before has been taken care of. Thanks guys.

[Sk8 Shorty's]

You know the number one problem I had with my ex boyfriend? I never, ever knew what was going on inside of his head. I would ask him, but he'd never tell me. It's like he was happy all the time...and when he broke up with me, it was the hugest; most painful shock...because he'd shut me out so much, I just assumed he was happy, as shallow as that might sound. If there's one thing I can say to you: make sure you let each other know how you feel. Don't get her feelings out of her and then expect to be able to shut off from her. Make sure you talk to her, that's what she's there for...

i know exactly what u mean, u cant be like some robot, and just hide your feelings inside, you gotta let it out, or else shes gonna think you dont like/love her anymore, and the relationship is gonna fall apart.

[gmgsci]

Psh. I'm not jealous. (Lie)

[mcwattersm]

It all happened one friday morning. Another boring day of school. I took my usal route towards school. I get to the cross walk. Press the button and look at some guy who I though wasn't going to stop. I made the "what the ****" face. He stopped, I threw my board under my foot and pushed. All of a sudden I feel my face burning and my head aching, I hear all these horns and screaming. I get up, confused, and yell **** you to that guy. I procede to my board, and off to school was my plan. But people made such a big deal out of it. I just wanted to go... They call the ambulance and I call my aunt. While I'm setting on the strecher, I hear my aunt and they are asking her questions like...

Nurse: "How old is he?"
Aunt: "Um 12"
Me :"I'm 14"

So off to the hospital we went. My mom comes running in, crying. So blah blah blah. I'm just about sick of it all now. I pull off my strecher straps. Take a walk. Have a conversation with some old man. The Doc comes. Looks at my eyes, "Yeah you can go you are going to be fine." At that point I was pissed, so I bitched for a hour. And we went out of the hosptial and I jump on my board to see what my mom would do, she yelled at me, yeah. After that, I just wasn't the same. I couldn't cross the street, even if there was no cars in site. I fear the day I drive. I and just know I'm going to get hit again, I know it. Sometimes I dream it. Why am I telling you guys this? Oh well. Anyone know any good councilor that are cheap? And no gmgsci a prostitue isn't the type of cheap counciling I am looking for so don't say it. It will be really cliche.

[crypticpoet]

^^^ Drivers can be real pricks. It doesn't get much better once you start driving; I've had many bad driving experiences. They're what you call "Lazy Drivers", and there's a whole vocabulary of bad words you could use to describe them. Don't let it get to you, Matt, because those people are generally few and far between.

Well now that I have a little time on my hands...

31st December 2004, 11:55pm
I was at the computer, New Years Eve, doing some work. I was alone...my parents had gone to bed and my brothers were out getting drunk, so I went on msn to see if anyone could share my New Years Boredom. At exactly midnight, I was about to sign out, but then Josh signed in. I knew Josh from deviantArt, an artists website where you submit all your artwork and such. I thought,
"Sweet. Josh'll make me laugh."
We ended up talking until 7am. We made the stupidest, most boring topics flourish into this one mass mixture of humour and intellectual conversation. I was really starting to like the guy. But there was one problem.
He was in Melbourne.
I was in Sydney.
For all of you that don't know the geography of Australia; you have New South Wales (Which is where Sydney is, where I live) on the south-eastern side of Australia, and then if you keep heading south, you enter Victoria (Where Melbourne is, where Josh lives). So all-in-all, depending on the route you take, it's about an 8 hour drive.
So like, i specifically remember thinking "Wow. I want to find someone like Josh...but obviously not in Melbourne..."
Well, we kept talking, and we went for it anyway. A full-fledged, long-distance relationship. I had to go down to Melbourne later in July for my sister-in-law's wedding, so I thought I would bring my parents and we could meet up then.
Well, half way through June, he ended it. I acted like a child about it, and became really introverted, aloof and anti-social for ages. We still agreed to meet, though.
When I went down in July, we spent three days together alone, and that was enough. On the last night, I had this huge cry to him and blah blah blah...so we were back together; back in it for the long haul. He told me that he didn't want to fall in too far like he did before, because "it destroyed him". I don't understand how you can love someone so much that you actually can't be with them. Hmm.
So, we were back together. That lasted until around two months ago, when he ended it again. During that time, I saw him a grand total of three times.
There are a lot of intricate details that I won't go into, but overall, the distance destroyed him. I don't talk to him anymore; I like to think he's part of the past that I'll never have to remember. We had a lot of fun, spent a lot of time together, and ... the things that we made each other feel were both amazing and scary. But the moral to the story is:

Long Distance relationships don't turn out. People had been telling us all along but we so wanted to prove them wrong...12 months from now, I would have moved to Melbourne to be with him completely. I was ready for the wait, but he wasn't. It's a shame, too. Because he was my first love. We clicked as well in person as we did in blind conversation.

Oh well. We tried our best.

[mcwattersm]

Wow that sucks. I know were you are coming from too, it seems the only half decent girls that are in to me as much as I am them, live far away. Love sucks.

[crazy_dave]

^i had a sorta similar experience Mcwattersm.

I had just been skating at this park in Lancaster a city near me and i was going of to get some food in the town centre. Theres this really busy street there and for some amazingly stupid reason i decided to jog across it, underestimating the speed of an on-coming car.

I only noticed that i was gonna get hit when it was about 5 feet away from me. I threw my board onto the opposite side of the road and quickly sprinted the rest of the way, i watched the car the whole time, i could actually see the woman inside the car's look of terror and she physically closed her eyes.

I made it, but i could feel the speed of the car agaist my back foot. I only just made it by inches. I was really shook up and since then i have been terrified of that spot of road.

Erm yeah just thought i'd tell you guys.

Sorry bout your relationship, i never have much luck either ;).

[Mr.42]

About this whole thing with men/women and falling in love...I agree. Guys suck, and girls suck. Girls can be worse than guys, yes, but I do think guys...more often than not...are worse.

From my relationship experience, sometimes guys can do things without even knowing, that can hurt the girl. Then the girl, obviously, is hurt by it, but doesn't want to seem nagging to the guy for fear of losing him; so she shuts it all up inside of her, but it leaks out in her outward actions....


The last time I was frequently talking to a girl, I never "asked her out", cause I knew that would just be a stupid kind of responsibility that we would have. Just something that we're supposed to do now that we call each other boyfriend and girlfriend. I tried to keep as close a relationship as there would have been if we were dating, but I knew that if we starting dating things would get ****ed up cause we'd expect too much from each other. She would have gotten sad if I had been unable to call her on one particular night, or I'd get pissed if I saw another dude looking at her. And this is a girl who I've dated multiple times before, so I know how quickly things would get screwed up. In fact, the only time we ever made out was when we weren't dating. And it was a funky threeway session with this other chick. But that's another story for another time.

[DarkRider13]

When your ex cuts her self......

Especially when they're your friend and they're cutting themselves over you. Also the death of a best friend or close family member.

[ryanboy]

I've had a few, My dad left when i was 10,m grandpa died when i was about 7and my cat died last year,ex's also piss me off.

[Sk8 Shorty's]

Long Distance relationships don't turn out. People had been telling us all along but we so wanted to prove them wrong...12 months from now, I would have moved to Melbourne to be with him completely. I was ready for the wait, but he wasn't. It's a shame, too. Because he was my first love. We clicked as well in person as we did in blind conversation.

Oh well. We tried our best.

yeah i also know where your coming from, i had a g/f and towards the end of last summer, she sadly told me while eating dinner that her parents were moving to California, and they were of course making her move also, but we decided we loved/liked eachother that we would still stay together, even through talking on the phone and internet, it ended up not working out, and everytime i saw my friends and their g/f's they would hug and kiss, and i HATED it! cause i would want the same, i wanted to kiss and hug my g/f but i couldnt, cause she was all the way across the country, and so we eventually ended it, it sucked ass.

[pop38]

It all happened one friday morning. Another boring day of school. I took my usal route towards school. I get to the cross walk. Press the button and look at some guy who I though wasn't going to stop. I made the "what the ****" face. He stopped, I threw my board under my foot and pushed. All of a sudden I feel my face burning and my head aching, I hear all these horns and screaming. I get up, confused, and yell **** you to that guy. I procede to my board, and off to school was my plan. But people made such a big deal out of it. I just wanted to go... They call the ambulance and I call my aunt.

I don't get what you're saying, did you get hit by the car?

[crypticpoet]

The last time I was frequently talking to a girl, I never "asked her out", cause I knew that would just be a stupid kind of responsibility that we would have. Just something that we're supposed to do now that we call each other boyfriend and girlfriend. I tried to keep as close a relationship as there would have been if we were dating, but I knew that if we starting dating things would get ****ed up cause we'd expect too much from each other. She would have gotten sad if I had been unable to call her on one particular night, or I'd get pissed if I saw another dude looking at her.

I know exactly what you mean. Relationships put an unecessary amount of strain on things. I mean, if you have a really close friendship with someone, you're practically going out with them already. Why? Because if you were "official", it'd be exactly the same as a close friendship but you'd have to hug and kiss, and you'd expect a lot more from each other. When you're friends, and say she forgets to call you one night; you don't care. Whatever. You'll have a laugh about it the next day. When you're together and she says she'll call you and she doesn't...you're hurt. Why? Expectation.
She's supposed to be thinking of you constantly.
You're supposed to be the focal point of each others lives.
Why didn't she call me? Doesn't she care about me? and things like that. When it could have easily slipped her mind just as it would if you were friends. I think, at this age, it's more the "social status" of having a girlfriend. As I get older and look back on my apparent heirs, I think about how sad it is ... that there are so many things in their lives, yet all they can focus on is each other. It's such a shame. They date each other simply because it's expected of them because of their social status.
"Everyone is doing it, so I should too."
I know what you mean, Mr 42.

yeah i also know where your coming from, i had a g/f and towards the end of last summer, she sadly told me while eating dinner that her parents were moving to California, and they were of course making her move also, but we decided we loved/liked eachother that we would still stay together, even through talking on the phone and internet, it ended up not working out, and everytime i saw my friends and their g/f's they would hug and kiss, and i HATED it! cause i would want the same, i wanted to kiss and hug my g/f but i couldnt, cause she was all the way across the country, and so we eventually ended it, it sucked ass.

Josh and I used to talk about it all the time; but you know what we did to comfort ourselves? What I talked about up there in response to Mr 42. I see so many relationships that just mean nothing at all, and that comforted Josh and I. Fickle-minded togetherness that would have meant more if they weren't dating. So the way we saw it, we weren't missing out on much. But as time went on...the physical love (or "Eros" as it is in Greek:-6:) became so ... lost. There was nothing, we were void of physical comfort save the times we actually saw each other and the fallout of that ... well ... as you saw ... was catastrophic.

[Sk8 Till Death]

Wow, theres a lot of emotions going into this thread.
ive never had a internet relationship b4, only internet frends. anyway, y should people get internet relationships? at least have pic of her/him.u never no, that girl could be an overweight man tryin to lure u to trust him so he can kidnape u.

[mcwattersm]

I don't get what you're saying, did you get hit by the car?
Yeah, I was on my board and he hit me from the side, I didn't see it coming.

[Sk8 Shorty's]

i didnt exactly have an internet relationship, cause i knew her before, and ive met her before and talked to her and stuff like that but then later on it ended with us just talking on the phone and comp.

[Griptape Flip]

My grandpa lives down in Florida, I live in Texas, about a 2 day drive. I look up to him, I can't put in words how much I respect him. He's worked all his life, served in the Army, a great person. He was poor all his life, and worked for everything he's had and to support his family. He's had several heart attacks, and he might not live much longer. I remember when I was a child, we'd go to there house, they lived on this long old road, it was beautiful. We were best friends. I got older, we went down every year, saw them. He used to tell me stories from when he served in the army during ww2. Last year, we went down, and stayed with them for a week, visiting. I remember he came out of his room, and he handed me this old pocket knife. He handed it to me, and shook my hand, and looked into my eyes. He said "My father gave me this knife, and I've had it all my life, I want you to give it to your son, you're a good man." Two days later, he had a heart attack, and was in the hospital. I remember standing by his bedside, as he lay there, hooked up to machines. I reached down, and gave him a hug, and told him "Good bye, I love you." and that same day, we drove back to Texas. Since then, he's had another heart attack, and he might pass any day. I'm so anxious and depressed, because I don't know if i'll ever see him again.

[Mr.42]

I know a girl who told my sister-in-law "I'll wait till he's 20 and I'm 23, then I'll do him and maybe get married so you and I can actually be family."

But I guess that's not very depressing. hm

um, one very depressing thing is finding out that your girlfriend is like... bulemic. That's a real bummer.

At lunch...
My friend: Hey girl, what's your diet?
My girlfriend: *mumble*
My friend: What?
My girlfriend: I throw up.
And then I'm just sitting there, giving her the stone eyes and wondering if I should say something and if so, what?
It kinda made me feel awkward. I wouldn't want any girl to do that, but the fact that she might have been doing it to look good for me... that's really a mind-bender. I was pretty freaked out by it.

I wish I could tell you how it turned out, but I don't remember the rest of the story. We probably broke up again or something.

[GrizzledJASPER]

I know a girl who told my sister-in-law "I'll wait till he's 20 and I'm 23, then I'll do him and maybe get married so you and I can actually be family."

But I guess that's not very depressing. hm

um, one very depressing thing is finding out that your girlfriend is like... bulemic. That's a real bummer.

At lunch...
My friend: Hey girl, what's your diet?
My girlfriend: *mumble*
My friend: What?
My girlfriend: I throw up.
And then I'm just sitting there, giving her the stone eyes and wondering if I should say something and if so, what?
It kinda made me feel awkward. I wouldn't want any girl to do that, but the fact that she might have been doing it to look good for me... that's really a mind-bender. I was pretty freaked out by it.

I wish I could tell you how it turned out, but I don't remember the rest of the story. We probably broke up again or something.

You never noticed she tasted a little funny when she came out of the bathroom? haha. Yeah, some people are just a little off balance.

[crypticpoet]

That's messed up, but it makes you wonder why she'd say that so openly in front of the both of you...it seems a bit suss to me.

[AdioBird52]

Today was probably the worst day of my life, seeing as all the other terrible days I was too young to know what was going on.

My cat Carson died. There is a thread about it. Read that.

[mcwattersm]

I been thinking lately. And if/ or when I have a kid. How do I know how to raise him/her? I mean I don't know shit. The only think I can do is learn from my dads mistake and not abandon my wife/girlfriend. I mean if things don't work out then I'd work my ass off everyday so my child has a good life.

And Adio I'm sorry to hear about your kitty, mines on her last days.

[crypticpoet]

That's a difficult thing to know, especially at this age. As you get older, and especially when your wife is actually pregnant, I'd assume you'd start buying parenting books and looking at going to seminars and such. I know there are tonnes of books on it. They run a course here that's called "Exploring Early Childhood", too.

[mcwattersm]

Eh, I HOPEFULLY have atleast 15 years untill that day. Hopefully.

[bmmetcalf]

Damn if I accidently got a girl pregnate then I would most likely know what to do. I was raised in a childcare. My mom is now a somthing Childcare blabla. She teaches and makes sure people are taking take of the kids.

[I_Eat_Emo_Kids]

It suck's when you piss and it burns.

[gmgsci]

I dont know about kids.

I like them- but having to raise them, and learn from MY mistakes-ugh.

I don't want to ruin some kids life.

[swifty]

My wife and I had been trying to have a baby for about 5 or 6 maybe more years so needless to say it was a glorious day when Kelly (my wife) told me she was pregnant.

A few weeks later Kelly had what we and our doctor thought was a miscarriage this happened on Friday Kelly’s crappy doctor let us go all weekend thinking we had lost our child that we had loved before he was even conceived it was like all the color had drained form the world we walked around like zombies.

I was on the freeway Monday when Kelly called me to say that we had not lost our baby and he was as healthy as can be.

At 2 or3 months Kelly and I went to get some genetic tests run Kelly was “high risk” so her new doctor sent us to get them when the ultrasound girl was ultra sounding Kelly’s tummy they found a lump a big one, one that our last doctor should have caught but that’s another story.

Kelly’s family has a history of cancer so she started to think the worst.

The doctor said it was a rare type of ovarian cist one that if left along to long could be cancer thank god it wasn’t but it did have to be removed so we had to grip the fact that Kelly was going to have to have surgery to have it removed while she was pregnant so the surgery was scheduled for the following week it was a hard week to say the least we were both pretty depressed and scared.

During the surgery I was to say the least worried.

I love my wife more than I can express here and all we’ve focused on for the past few years was getting pregnant it was a blow to think we had miscarried then when that was over Kelly had to have surgery which did have some risk of losing the baby we had tried so hard to have.

Everything worked out Kelly’s fine and we have a beautiful 6 month old boy.

[bmmetcalf]

Sweet deal. That has to be the scareist thing for a parent to go through.

[Sk8 Shorty's]

thank God that your child wasnt a miscarriage, that would of been really depressing and not only that but if she had the cancer to, wow that would of been sad, but thankfully everythings ok, and im happy for u swifty, have a fun and awesome time watching your kid grow up.

[JoeyKovacs]

My aunt has had 2 miscarriages. thats 2 little cousins i don't get to have. booo.

Yeah the first time it happened everyone was like, woah. then it happened again. It was unreal.

[flipsk8er1728]

I'm glad to say that there has been no deaths in my family since I was alive,But my Grandma is in very bad shape. She is diabetic, which isn't that big of a deal, but in 1991, right before I was born, she got into a car accident with my aunt being the driver. She wasn't wearing a seatbelt either. She got lanched through the windsheild onto the side of the road. Her leg was all cut up, and they had to perform sugery. They flipped her main artery in her leg upside down to help the bloodflow. Well, it just ****ed it up even more. Now she gets hardly any bloodflow to her leg and foot, and it constantly gets swollen and starts to throb unbearably. Now her Diabetes is a big problem because of the circulation of blood through her leg.I feel so bad for her. She's such a great lady and didn't deserve anything like this.

[flipsk8er1728]

It suck's when you piss and it burns.


Don't whack off with soap. :-1:

[Seanie990]

I really have had a good life. Sometimes I think it's bad when my dad yells at me or something, but reading these made me realize a lot more. One of the worst things that happened was moving to Canada. When I was 4, I moved to Poland. I lived there until I was 10. I pretty much grew up there, and all my best friends were there, and my favourite memories. When I talk to those people now it isn't the same. They have changed; one being a goth who writes poems about killing and raping people, others just not remebering me the way I remeber them.

Same here. Reading these stories makes me really sad, but I feel that if I take part in it, I would feel better.

My dad is a great guy, and I love him to death, he can make me laugh, and we have now become really bonded. However, he has depression, and it caused him to get mad at little things, and let me say, he can yell
Well, he went on antidepressants, until he heard on some stupid radio show that antidepressants keep you from feeling sad when you should, (NOT TRUE), so he decided to stop for a while. Well, you ever hear how if you stop
taking antidepressants after you had been on them for a while, you become even more depressed? Yeah, that's what happened. One night, my mom and him had a really bad arguement, and I just couldn't take it anymore,so I stormed into the room and started shouting as well. I don't even remember what I said. Well, after the event, I was afraid my parents would get divorced. Luckily they didn't, and my dad went back on the day after, however I didn't know. I knew he was acting like his old, cool self, but I was afraid to ask if he went back on, for I was afraid of the answer. He still shouts every once in a long while, but it never gets as bad as it did that night.

Another thing was when my mom's friend from work died of leukemia, she was a wonderful person, and I still miss her.

My great aunt died when I was younger, but I didn't know her too well.

More recently (like 5-6 months ago), my aunt's mom got really sick, and we thought that she was reaching her end, but all of the sudden her husband gets really sick, and he dies. It was so out of the blue, because he was very healthy the last time I saw him. My aunt's mom Is doing a lot better, but I still miss her husband a lot. He was a great guy.

Then my cousin alex died in may:
Staff Report

A motorcycle driver and his passenger were killed in a three-vehicle collision Friday evening on Ky. 121 South.

Alexander E. Jarvis, 27, of New Concord, was driving a 2005 Kawasaki Ninja at a high rate of speed northbound on Ky. 121 and struck the back of a 2000 Chevrolet pickup truck at 5:33 p.m. Friday, according to a Kentucky State Police release.

Both Jarvis and passenger Julie M. Jiorino, 18, of Murray, were ejected. A third vehicle - a 2000 Dodge Intrepid - was southbound on Ky. 121 and struck Jiorino, who was in that lane of traffic, according to state police.

The motorcycle came to a final rest on the east side of Ky. 121 while the pickup truck stopped in the northbound lane. The third car came to a final rest in the southbound lane. KSP didn't release the names of either of the other two drivers involved in the fatal collision.

EMS transported Jarvis and Jiorino to Murray-Calloway County Hospital emergency room, where they were pronounced dead. They both died of multiple blunt force trama sustained in the vehicle crash, according to Calloway County Coroner Mike Garland.

KSP Trooper Brad Duvall was assisted at the scene by KSP Trooper Tim Sales and Sgt. Tim Moore, Calloway County Sheriff's Department, Murray Police Department, Calloway County Fire-Rescue, Murray Fire Department and Disaster and Emergency Services.

Duvall and Sales are continuing the investigation

I hardly got to know him, but He was really nice. He worked with my uncle in the metal shop, and made a mirror shaped like the playboy bunny for me. It's on my bookcase, so I can always remember him.Sometimes I just think about it, you know?He seemed like someone I could really get along with.

[gmgsci]

My dad has a really good bicycling friend, Deke. At some points he would replace my father, because my dad is always caught up with work. 13-15 hours a day.

I had just returned from a 7-day camp, 3 hours away from home. My mom told me that Deke was biking without his helmet, just to go a couple of block. And hit a pothole.

Deke was put into the E.R. for several days. He lost many body functions, especially senses. The fact of death was over 90%.

4-ish days later Deke was okay. He had facial surgery. So now he looks like a sasquatch. A bald one.

He can only see out of one eye, cannot smell, can barely taste (he is getting some taste back, praise the lord for beer), and is often made fun of because of his face.

My parents, and some other bicyclists, made a "Back In The Race" donation thing. Where they would race for money, and help Deke and his girlfriend pay the hospital bills.

I love him. He is my sasquatch.

[Dookie416]

shit.. that makes me wanna wear a helmet so bad.. then again, if i ever ride a motorcycle i will most likely wear a helmet. sorry about the accident, not about your friend, why should i be sorry? he is still a normal person.

[Seanie990]

I know exactly how you feel, just in a slightly different context. I may as well have never met my father.

Year after year was pretty much silence, but then I had a fight with my mum and had nowhere else to go but his place where he was living with my step mum and step brother. Well...we didn't get along at all. If he wasn't yelling at me, he wasn't home. He hit me, and my step mother hated me, too. I was made to believe for years that it was my fault--because I never contacted my father or tried to see him; I was the one to blame. I think there's a problem with that, because he's the father and I'm the daughter. He should have been the one trying to contact me, and it wasn't my fault at all....gosh, I was a little girl...for crying out loud..I felt so guilty for all those years.

It was only Christmas last year that I came to this realization. He suddenly showed up at work and said "are you coming to see me on Christmas day?"
"Yes. Is it okay if you can give me a lift down to your place?"
"Hmm...I'll see if your brother can do it."
"Why can't you?"
"It means I can't drink all day if I have to pick you up."
I just stood there, gaping. It showed me where his priorities were. I was seething, but I didn't say anything.

A few months ago, I called him just to say hi; because I decided to try and make amends with him. He didn't answer, then called back later that night and said,
"What did you want?"
"Just to hang out..."
"You only usually call when you want something."
It flared up from there, and he ended up telling me that I didn't need a father. So I took those words on. I guess he was right. I guess I didn't. I've lived without him for most of my life...so it's not...it's not like this pain of losing someone. It's the pain of realizing that they were never really there.

I feel your pain, Matt. We're sort of on the same level. If I ever saw my father again, I'd castrate him. I hate the guy.

I guess it's better that he left when you were younger. Not because you don't have a dad, but because that evil man is not in your life. I hope I didn't offend you by saying that. I just wouldn't want a dad that takes a day at the bar before his own kid, you know?

[crypticpoet]

Nah I know what you mean, I wouldn't take offence to that.

You're right. And when I fought with him last, when I ended whatever little relationship I had with my father, I cried not so much because I had that feeling of losing something...but more realizing that he wasn't never even there. So I'm fine about it. He was right, I don't need him.

[Captain Oveur]

Everything worked out Kelly’s fine and we have a beautiful 6 month old boy.CONGRATULATIONS! I'm glad everything turned out okay.

This didn't happen directly to me but it still keeps me up at night. I'm not even sure how to start it, I guess I'll do the short version. There was a boy at my son's daycare that seemed to be having some abnormal growth development in his legs. He seemed fine mentally, played and acted just like a 1 year old should. Turns out the abnormal growth was caused by tumors throughout his body. He had cancer even before he was born. He went down to NYC for treatment and the cancer started to go into remission so hopes were high. But then he re-lapsed. Finally his parents made the toughest decision I'm sure they'd ever had to face. It was time to stop the (ineffective) treatment and bring him home so that he could spend the rest of his days surrounded by family. He wasn't even 2 years old.

They have a large picture of him right at the entrance of the daycare, everyday when I drop off my son I see a picture of Alex. It's hard to describe how just seeing his picture makes me feel and I couldn't even begin to understand how his parents feel. This keeps me up at night.

[crypticpoet]

^^ I hate it when I hear stories of people that didn't even get a chance at life...it's so gay.

Well, welcome to RR :)

[KBobb2009]

Back in '01, maybe '02, something like that, my grandma died, so my grandpa was left all alone. But back in May he got remarried. They were so happy for the time they had together. But about 2 months after they got remarried, they were driving home, and their car got hit by a huge horse, and my step-grandma (or whatever that relation is called) was killed. I haven't been affected by it too much, but I can't imagine what my grandpa's going through....

[Captain Oveur]

Well, welcome to RR :)Thanks! Didn't even realize that was my first post here. What a way to make an intro......

[Bakerbum211]

I just got dumped........

Girls are a pain in the ass.

[Sk8 Shorty's]

^^^^^^
yes they are, ive found out, were not the confusing ones THEY ARE! but anyways, this isnt a thread about girls and boys.

[Bakerbum211]

^^^^^^
yes they are, ive found out, were not the confusing ones THEY ARE! but anyways, this isnt a thread about girls and boys.

Getting dumped is very stressful.

[rustyburrito55]

I must feel no emotional pain or something because i've never had anything like this happen. You might say i'm a jerk when I write this but when my mom told me my grandma had died that morning I just said "ok" and continued with my business. I saw her a lot but I didn't have any conversations with her ever. I guess that's the reason.

The only thing I think could absolutely crush me would be something happening to my girlfriend of 3.5 years. I couldn't take something like that.

[Sk8 Shorty's]

Getting dumped is very stressful.
naw that was awhile ago, it wasnt the dumped part that was stressful, it was that she just dumped me for some other guy. but anyways i was saying thier confusing, cause some dont like it when u show affecion and love towards them alot, and then others are like "why dont u act like u love me!?" if u love me, show me! and so it gets confusing at what to do, and then some want u to be hard on them when playing a sport 1 on 1 with em, and then some want u to play easy on them, its so frustrating.

[AlmostJeff]

Well where should I begin...hmm...well at the age of about 6 I walked upstairs from my first day of 1st grade to hear my dad screaming, yes screaming at my mom it was terrible he was cussing at her and telling her he would kill her and shit like that and my mom was crying so bad. So later I tried to talk to my mom and she said "leave me alone." I cried. It was terrible. after about 3 - 4 years of living with my parents yelling and fighting and not caring about me, my sister, or my brother it got to me. Then my mom and dad divorced and split up I haven't talked to or have seen my dad in years...I dont even know if he's alive. When I was in 5th grade my grandma died, I was heartbroken she was the only person I knew that I could talk to or keep secrets with she was pretty much a second mom. Just recently about a month ago my mom and I were yelling at each other, which never happens because I have a great amount of respect for my mom, and my mom said out of anger that she had her tubes tied and that I was lucky to be born and that I was a complete accident, and then she called me the unwanted one of the family. I was so sad I cried so much, I didn't talk to my mom for weeks...I have few more stories and some of these ones aren't even telling the half of what happened, but some things are better off left unsaid.

[Bakerbum211]

naw that was awhile ago, it wasnt the dumped part that was stressful, it was that she just dumped me for some other guy. but anyways i was saying thier confusing, cause some dont like it when u show affecion and love towards them alot, and then others are like "why dont u act like u love me!?" if u love me, show me! and so it gets confusing at what to do, and then some want u to be hard on them when playing a sport 1 on 1 with em, and then some want u to play easy on them, its so frustrating.


Yeah thats what happened. and i love her so much.

[mcwattersm]

But your like 12. You probably couldn't define love let alone live it.

[Bakerbum211]

But your like 12. You probably couldn't define love let alone live it.


13...........

[mcwattersm]

13...........
Even so. Hell, I don't know what love is, or if I have even been in it. All I know is you are worrying about that crap to much, you are to younge to worry about it, just have fun being a kid.

[R-dude]

Well erm...my life is pretty fine. I don't really have much of a relationship with either of my parents(even though we live in the same house). My dad doesn't listen to anything I have to say and if he does he gets annoyed and starts yelling and used to get physical some times too.
My mom...she criticises my every single move and tries to control every single thing that I do. But it's all not really a big deal so it's all good.

I'm in shit mood now though cause last saturday I found out my girlfriend cheated on me....twice.

[crypticpoet]

^^ If I was ever cheated on, I would never, ever be able to be with that person again. Cheating shows that they never loved you enough to resist other people in the first place.

I think people throw the word "love" around far too much. People aren't careful when they say it anymore; like it means nothing now...just like marriage. How sad. I never say it. Not unless I truly mean it, and I haven't said it for a long time...and don't plan on saying it for a long time. Screw dating; I have better things to do. I'm over guys for the time being.

[Blind Sheppard]

Exactly. I found out my girlfriend of 11 months cheated on me twice while i was away which kinda put a downer on everything. I have loads of people saying oh get back with her it was a mistake. But if someone can be prepared to hurt someone they apparently love that easily then there's no point in being together.

[flipsk8er1728]

Well where should I begin...hmm...well at the age of about 6 I walked upstairs from my first day of 1st grade to hear my dad screaming, yes screaming at my mom it was terrible he was cussing at her and telling her he would kill her and shit like that and my mom was crying so bad. So later I tried to talk to my mom and she said "leave me alone." I cried. It was terrible. after about 3 - 4 years of living with my parents yelling and fighting and not caring about me, my sister, or my brother it got to me. Then my mom and dad divorced and split up I haven't talked to or have seen my dad in years...I dont even know if he's alive. When I was in 5th grade my grandma died, I was heartbroken she was the only person I knew that I could talk to or keep secrets with she was pretty much a second mom. Just recently about a month ago my mom and I were yelling at each other, which never happens because I have a great amount of respect for my mom, and my mom said out of anger that she had her tubes tied and that I was lucky to be born and that I was a complete accident, and then she called me the unwanted one of the family. I was so sad I cried so much, I didn't talk to my mom for weeks...I have few more stories and some of these ones aren't even telling the half of what happened, but some things are better off left unsaid.Wow dude, my mom was 15 when she had me, but she never flat out said that I was an accident.

[bmmetcalf]

Exactly. I found out my girlfriend of 11 months cheated on me twice while i was away which kinda put a downer on everything. I have loads of people saying oh get back with her it was a mistake. But if someone can be prepared to hurt someone they apparently love that easily then there's no point in being together.
Ya, Once is a mistake.
Twice is a huge mistake.

A girl cheated on me once and said oh I am so sorry I messed up. Me being young gave in and went back out with her. Well when you think thier different, thier not. She did it again and I never went back to her again.

[crypticpoet]

By getting back with them, yu're pretty much telling them that they can get away with it.

[Blind Sheppard]

Yeah, it happend once and i was like well i'm not to bothered because it's not a big thing because we'd only been going out a while and it was still kinda the honey moon part but then when i found out the second time i was mortified because that was 2 weeks before a year together and then i was talking to my mate steff who accidently mistook this thing for another time when i had been away.

[XBLinK182sk8rX]

But your like 12. You probably couldn't define love let alone live it.
Yeah, that's what I think about my best friend. He was going out with this girl for a while, like 1 and a half years or so. Suddenlt, one day, he just broke up with her. She was crushed. The next day, he started going out with this other chick. That same exact day, on his myspace, he wrote that he will love his new girl forever. There's no way you can have feelings like that after one day. I've never REALLY felt love, but before I have gotten close. I use to REALLY, REALLY like this girl in my class. I told my best friend about how much I liked her. She even told at a party that she used to like me too, I was pretty sure that she still liked me. But then my friend, the one I told about how much I liked her, asked her out to a dance that was coming up. I was crushed. I couldn't believe he could do such a thing, I felt like I wanted to kill him, but I kept it all inside, I don't like violence. Before the dance though, the girl who I liked just said he was going out with him because she felt sorry for him. So then, she kinda ended it with him, and started going out with someone else. Then, she moved. I didn't see her for like two years, and then she transferred to my school. We don't ever talk, and she changed completely, I don't like her any more. And to this day, me and my friend are still sort of friends, he moved to Orlando, and I stayed here in Tampa, but I have and probably never will forgive him for what he did. This isn't anything bad, and I almost want to cry aboout things that have happened to you guys. I haven't felt any pain like that. I just want to say I feel sorry for all of you guys and just stay strong.

[AlmostJeff]

So many people are talking about love on here, but what is your definition of it? Love to me is when you would die for someone else as in like jump in front of a bullet for them. I love lots of people friends and family. As of now no girlfriend I wouldn't mind one though , but I figure what's the point you know? You go out for a few months then break up with tears and end a friendship, not worth it to me. Well yeah just my basic opinion of it.

[bmmetcalf]

Ya people ask me why I havnt had a girlfreind in awhile and I just tell them that most girls at our school are not ready. You see all of them going one person to another. I am just waiting for them to muture up allitle.

[Sk8 Shorty's]

So many people are talking about love on here, but what is your definition of it? Love to me is when you would die for someone else as in like jump in front of a bullet for them. I love lots of people friends and family. As of now no girlfriend I wouldn't mind one though , but I figure what's the point you know? You go out for a few months then break up with tears and end a friendship, not worth it to me. Well yeah just my basic opinion of it.

the point of having a g/f is to help u later on decide who to marry, dating helps u realize whats good and bad in a g/f.

[Miniflipkid]

Mine was when I got in my first car accident.

I was driving at night with two friends, I was dropping one off, and it just got done raining. I pulled up to an intersection, and the light was green. I waited inside the intersection for a while, when I saw an opening, or what looked like an opening in the dark streets, so I accelerated. In the middle of the turn, my wheels suddenly caught hydroplane. This has never happened to me before this, so I didn't know what to do. I panicked. I accelerated harder and harder until I knew that I couldn't do anything to prevent it. I saw the bright lights of the pick up going back and forth, as it tried to skid out of the way, but it didn't do any good. The truck hit the right side of the car, exactly where both my friends were sitting. After the impact I make sure everything is all right, if my friends are ok. They were all right, the girl I was with was a little anxious, but we were all OK. I immediatly pull the gear into reverse and back up, and pull into the parking lot of the nearby tire store. I then realized that I hadn't had my driver's license for 6 months yet, meaning I can only have 1 other person in the car. I had my license for 17 days that night. I then, without thinking, do the meanest and cruelest thing that I feel I have ever done. I told my friend to leave. I told him to just go away, I didn't care where. He runs off and ends up at a Burger King. I run over to the truck to see if everyone is OK, and there is already an officer there. The guy in the truck immediatly starts yelling at me, but I don't blame him. I get my dad over to the scene, since he has the insurance information. That is about the time I get a phone call. From the friend that I forced out of the incident. He said that he has glass in his neck, and is going to have his mom drive him to the hospital. I didn't know what to say or do at that point, so I just said ok. I go over and see how my other friend is doing, by that time her parents are already where I parked the now-totalled car, which is across the street from the officer. Her father was surprised that I could even manage to pull out of the intersection, since my back axle snapped. We bring them over for the police statements, and my other friend and his mom pull up to the scene. Oh great, now I get in trouble for that, I think to myself. Fortunatly, having a family of policemen pays off, as the officer handling the collision, knew my uncle. I ended up not getting a ticket for having two other people in the car, even though I blatantly lied to the officer and said that I didn't have another person in the car besides my one friend. I got one ticket, for not yeilding the right of way. The car I was driving was a '96, so we only had Liability insurance on it, and it was compeletly wrecked. I am so fortunate to have the friends I do, since even though I did the meanest thing that I have done to anyone to him, he immediatly forgave me, and we are still best friends now.

Here is a picture of the car. Apparently if it was a compact car, which I had the choice of driving, or if the truck actually hit us directly, all three of us would have died. The truck only side swiped us, and still managed to destroy this van. The picture doesn't look like much, but if you were there you'd understand a little more about how this picture doesn't do the damage justice in any way.

http://i26.photobucket.com/albums/c147/Spideysean102/SeansCar.jpg

[mcwattersm]

When you got to the "he got glass in his neck" part I thought that it was going to end with him dieing. Thank God that he didn't.

[Miniflipkid]

Dear god no. I don't even want to know how badly I would have felt, or feel now even.

[Miniflipkid]

I'm 16 years old.

This happened in June.

[mcwattersm]

I'm 16 years old.

This happened in June.
Oh wow, I always though you were so much younger.

[AlmostJeff]

As my mom would say "quit your bickering both of ya!" Seriously dude quit starting shit with Matt. I mean I have no more authority over you then you do to me, but I know when people are being flat out idiots. Just stop posting in this thread unless you have something to say about the topic, and Matt try to not say anything to get you banned we can't lose another good member on here. Sorry for getting into the middle of this folks.

[Miniflipkid]

Oh wow, I always though you were so much younger.

Is it the way I dress?

[Poser Park]

Everyone calm the F*CK DOWN! Jesus, bickering like a bunch of 6 year olds...all of you! Bakerbum, say sorry to McWattersm. McWattersm, say sorry to Bakerbum. Just quit fighting, put your differences on the sideline for once...please...for my fragile health. Bakerbum has had a tought week. Thank you and good-night.

[crypticpoet]

Holy hell, all of you, STOP IT. I'll be deleting posts.

I just came back from a good four hour skate to this. Geez.


Miniflipkid, it might be the innuendo in your name that made you appear younger. "Kid" and all. But I can tell the damage done to your car, and the shock it must have put you all through. That's awful. One of the reasons I hate driving is for that very reason, but I do anyway because it's convenient...I always have trouble with the "Keep Clear" signs att traffic lights. I always block the clearway because there's no room on the other side and I'm already half way across.

I'm sorry to hear about what happened to you, and yeah, I thought your friend was going to die as well. Thank God he didn't; it could have been much worse...if that made you feel any better at all. Um. Yeah I'll just go now, haha!

[Bakerbum211]

Holy hell, all of you, STOP IT. I'll be deleting posts.

I just came back from a good four hour skate to this. Geez.


Miniflipkid, it might be the innuendo in your name that made you appear younger. "Kid" and all. But I can tell the damage done to your car, and the shock it must have put you all through. That's awful. One of the reasons I hate driving is for that very reason, but I do anyway because it's convenient...I always have trouble with the "Keep Clear" signs att traffic lights. I always block the clearway because there's no room on the other side and I'm already half way across.

I'm sorry to hear about what happened to you, and yeah, I thought your friend was going to die as well. Thank God he didn't; it could have been much worse...if that made you feel any better at all. Um. Yeah I'll just go now, haha!

Ok im sorry. Its just that NO ONE undserstands what im saying. i just got dumped by the PERSON I LOVE TO DEATH. and then matthew just had to make it worst.

[crippled_skater]

Dude, chill. I said it was the worst because the personi LOVED SO MUCH dumped me. then matthew is like " you dont know what love is, stop trying" so hes an idiot. And if you stand up for matthew so much why dont you have sex with him you moron.

He said that because you probably don't know what love is, tell you what finish puberty then we will talk. Just Shut up and stop being an emotional little turd. cryptic poet wanted this to be a serious thread and it was untill you spazed because matt made a little comment that you don't know what love is now shut up and lets get on with our lives.

[crypticpoet]

I realize that but you have to understand that nobody probably will ever understand. But you don't NEED them to; that's why that entire mishap was just stupid. You were fighting over something that people are most likely incapable of understanding. Things won't be much different when you're older; your mates will still rag on you if you tell them you've fallen in love with someone. So just chill. You might even look back on your entire relationship with her and laugh.

[Bakerbum211]

He said that because you probably don't know what love is, tell you what finish puberty then we will talk. Just Shut up and stop being an emotional little turd. cryptic poet wanted this to be a serious thread and it was untill you spazed because matt made a little comment that you don't know what love is now shut up and lets get on with our lives.


Dude, read what ****ing ***** PARK WROTE! GODAMMIT PEOPLE! DOES ANYONE GET WHAT IM SAYING? GOD. I ONLY RESPECT ***** PARK AND CRYPIC IN THIS THREAD!!!

[Bakerbum211]

I realize that but you have to understand that nobody probably will ever understand. But you don't NEED them to; that's why that entire mishap was just stupid. You were fighting over something that people are most likely incapable of understanding. Things won't be much different when you're older; your mates will still rag on you if you tell them you've fallen in love with someone. So just chill. You might even look back on your entire relationship with her and laugh.


Sorry bout' the double post but its just that everyone is turning against me. For no reason. And you're right. but it wasn't " we need to break up" When she broke up with me,we got into a fight. like shes like ' **** YOU! I ****ING HATE YOU!" I was so heartbroken and I felt hated. It made me feel useless. like im no good. and it doesnt help when everyone is on matthews side. jesus. this is what mcjesus is trying to say. Ramprage is turning into BASHrage. its pointless. i didnt do anything and thats final.

And matthew, Zack is right.

So if this will make you stop making my week feel ****ing shitty, im sorry.

Enough said. i hope you understand why its such a depressing week.

[crypticpoet]

Dude, read what ****ing ***** PARK WROTE! GODAMMIT PEOPLE! DOES ANYONE GET WHAT IM SAYING? GOD. I ONLY RESPECT ***** PARK AND CRYPIC IN THIS THREAD!!!

Dearest, does it even affect you personally? I know it's offensive but honestly...this won't change your life; and other opinions won't either. Who cares what others say? You know what you feel and that's that; it's not up to anyone else to tell you.

On the contrary...sometimes the hardest person to know is yourself...

Nobody is turning against you; don't victimize yourself. You said something that Matt didn't agree with, and you got into a fight about it. That fight is now over, we've all had our cry, so let's move on.

[mcwattersm]

Maybe because you are over reacting? And acting really imature. I mean read what you said, come on man. And jesus actually read what I said, what you quoted me on was nothing near what I said. I did nothing wrong, I was actually trying to make you feel better, but you know what, I couldn't care less how you fell now, with a combonation of the things you said to Zack on AIM and here.

EDIT: Sorry Cryptic you got to the post before me, I am done now, I don't care if he replys.

[Bakerbum211]

Maybe because you are over reacting? And acting really imature. I mean read what you said, come on man. And jesus actually read what I said, what you quoted me on was nothing near what I said. I did nothing wrong, I was actually trying to make you feel better, but you know what, I couldn't care less how you fell now, with a combonation of the things you said to Zack on AIM and here.


Well, she ****ing hates me now, she got into a fight with me. and it sounded like you were trying to make me feel like shit.

So i guess im sorry.

EDIT: Read what i said before crypics post.

[mcwattersm]

To tell you the truth, I just sat here the whole time, it was entertaining, see I don't care what people say about me. And neither should you, these are people you are never going to meet, they don't know you in person, so who cares about some one who you are never going to meet? Why care? Just sit there, respond civily, and hold your nose high. Be the better person, and treat it like nothing. I hope that from here on out; you will realize this, and you enjoy RR, its not here to make you feel like shit, and if it is, either leave for a bit, or talk to one of the members of the staff.

I accept your apology, and I am too, sorry that I made you so upset.

And to anwser your question, yes, yes I have had a girlfriend, and yes I have been through a break up, and chances are, I am alot more emotional then you are. But I got over it, so, like I said, just be a kid, and have fun doing it, don't worry about girls yet, they have cooties.

[Bakerbum211]

To tell you the truth, I just sat here the whole time, it was entertaining, see I don't care what people say about me. And neither should you, these are people you are never going to meet, they don't know you in person, so who cares about some one who you are never going to meet? Why care? Just sit there, respond civily, and hold your nose high. Be the better person, and treat it like nothing. I hope that from here on out; you will realize this, and you enjoy RR, its not here to make you feel like shit, and if it is, either leave for a bit, or talk to one of the members of the staff.

I accept your apology, and I am too, sorry that I made you so upset.

And to anwser your question, yes, yes I have had a girlfriend, and yes I have been through a break up, and chances are, I am alot more emotional then you are. But I got over it, so, like I said, just be a kid, and have fun doing it, don't worry about girls yet, they have cooties.