what's the problem....

[chickaboarder13]

is there a problem when your not your own friend? when you hate spending time with yourself, when you hate listening to yourself, when you hate not being able to be someone else? When you're yourself around most people, and then when your around those that you know best, or have the most fun with, your quiet and not yourself? What the hell is the matter with me? i want out of this stupid curse. i want to sleep without tears. i want to get away from myself. the ones i care about most, see me as a aquantance. i can't stand it. the ones i love, love those i want to be. argh. i hate my life. why why why why why WHY me?! is there a problem when your not your own friend? what the hell is wrong with me?

[Flipkid]

i think everyones been there or will be there. i have good news and bad news for you. the good news, that feeling does p***. ive discovered that pretty much everyone goes through a time when there really depressed and just not happy. for most people it happens when there starting to change from a kid to an adult. you know, high school age. for most people i know they went through that somewhere around age 11-17. it happens to everyone i think, at least in my experience. so yeh as i was saying, the good news is that itll get better, just hang in there. the bad news is that it might last a while. just whatever you do, dont give up. no matter how frustrated you get with yourself, keep your eyes on the finish line. just endure it, and youll come out fine. i know that what im saying probably sounds like a lie to you right now, but trust me youll be ok. ive been there. it sucks. but it ends. all you can do is hang on, and just keep loving the people you love. theyll come around. and hey, if you ever need someone to talk to im here cuz i know exactly how you feel. my sn is toymachine967, dont feel afraid to talk to me. the best thing you can do when your going through that is to talk. dont bottle yourself up like i did, just stay open and everyone will help you through it. i lost a lot of friends when i was going through that cuz i shut people out and just tried to hide from everything. sorry if it sounds like im preaching. but just hang tight and youll make it. ;)

[freeagent69]

Originally posted by chickaboarder13
is there a problem when your not your own friend? when you hate spending time with yourself, when you hate listening to yourself, when you hate not being able to be someone else? When you're yourself around most people, and then when your around those that you know best, or have the most fun with, your quiet and not yourself? What the hell is the matter with me? i want out of this stupid curse. i want to sleep without tears. i want to get away from myself. the ones i care about most, see me as a aquantance. i can't stand it. the ones i love, love those i want to be. argh. i hate my life. why why why why why WHY me?! is there a problem when your not your own friend? what the hell is wrong with me?

i fell the same way right now don't worry

[chickaboarder13]

hey, thanks ryan... thanks tons, i really did need to hear that. thanks again-

-ash

[DarkHawk2-2]

i thought that was a song... :) but yea, i feel like that sometimes. Its like being pissed off at ureself all the time and it really makes u a real biatch and stuff. Weird stuff.

[Impossible]

hey ashle in going the same thing right now dont worry we hang in there together:)

[Flipkid]

Originally posted by chickaboarder13
hey, thanks ryan... thanks tons, i really did need to hear that. thanks again-

any time ashley. glad to have helped, even if it was only a little bit.

[AIRZ1]

Good luck for getting through it

[Craig Himself]

Ashley hunny why didnt u tell me about this?
Its perfecty normal to be going through something like that its what everyone goes through as they grow older (sorry to the person who originaly said that but yes it is true).
What do you mean the ones you care for the most see you as an aquantance (sorry im a bit slow at times)? You mean to say they dont care about you as much and they just think of you as another person who's just there at the time? If so you know im going through the same thing.
I feel like the odd one out with my friends, everyone will be chiling and stuff and then they all talk about this and that and when i try to join in they act like im not there and im invisable. I proved that point to myself the other night, about 10 of us were out on Mat's estate and i tried to join in and they were all "erm yeah craig..." and i just got all down again (cause anyone who knows me well enough knows that its a huge problem with me) and i went and just sat down in the middle of the road and no one noticed me. Thats happened alot to me, people will beg me to go to a party and i'll show up and then i end up outside on my own sitting on some bench crying to myself whilst everyone inside is chating about something which isn't something id go into (drugs, smokin etc). No one would notice i'd gone missing. no one cares.
Little things like these lead me to hate myself. I hate the way i look, the way i act, i hate the fact that i cant get a gurlfriend, i hate the fact that im depressed and most likely suicidal alot because of people who put me down non stop and dont seem to care about me. I can only name about 4 people who really do give a shit about me. One of them is on this forum (not hard to guess is it? so I'll just say it...) and it's Ashley.
You know that i care about you Ashley! I dont just think you're just another person off the street who's there to say hi to once in a while or when i can be bothered. You're alot more than that to me. You're special to me.....




Sorry That's a really fukin long post by me, probably my longest and i bet no one on here will even bother to read it! I kind of rambled on alot so things just came out. Im going to leave it all there anyway, atleast it shows i aint just some fukin English wanker who thinks about sex,drugs,rock and roll and BTD and skateboarding.
Im more than that and im a deep person on the inside , despite what people think of me.

[freeagent69]

ya i know what you mean craig most people think im this little happy go luck kid but thats not what i am im more than just that im a deeper more sensitve kinda guy and i don't think or know if anyone will ever know the real me

[Flip Boy]

Err..... Is that a song or summin? I have no idea what you are on about. Be yourself, if people don't like it then they are not true friends.

[Craig Himself]

Glad someone else understands me

[AIRZ1]

Craig i read it all but i thought lou was the one who was so special to you and she was the one you cared about.

[freeagent69]

who were you talking about craig?

[AIRZ1]

Craig was talking abouut Ashley.

[Craig Himself]

i said ashley is special to me. Lou .. well shes completely ****in screw me over but not in a good way, shes only pushed my problems into new levels. Ben man im ****in warning u your gona get hurt mate.

Chiesen.. - Ben;)

[AIRZ1]

I've told him hes gonna get hurt too but he wont listen.

[TwiztidSkater15]

Originally posted by chickaboarder13
is there a problem when your not your own friend? when you hate spending time with yourself, when you hate listening to yourself, when you hate not being able to be someone else? When you're yourself around most people, and then when your around those that you know best, or have the most fun with, your quiet and not yourself? What the hell is the matter with me? i want out of this stupid curse. i want to sleep without tears. i want to get away from myself. the ones i care about most, see me as a aquantance. i can't stand it. the ones i love, love those i want to be. argh. i hate my life. why why why why why WHY me?! is there a problem when your not your own friend? what the hell is wrong with me?

im not sure what to say but me sorry Ashley...::hugs:: any better??? ::squee::

[chickaboarder13]

Originally posted by Flip Boy
Err..... Is that a song or summin? I have no idea what you are on about. Be yourself, if people don't like it then they are not true friends.

no it's not a song. it's what can to my mind and i wrote it down. if u accually red it all u'd have some flickin ider of what i was talkin about ben! look who's talking- you won't even get to know me and u hate me! why ben? why?

[AIRZ1]

Yeh ben why?

[chickaboarder13]

he's avoiding me now.. oh well! thanks for everything! specailly u craig ;) :p... boyah! 2nd place for ashley! hahah

[Craig Himself]

your welcome ashley

[chickaboarder13]

... i bet u other girls wish u were 2nd place... i know it! ;) ... and since only craig knows what i'm talkin about then i guess they really dun care about 2nd place...

[Craig Himself]

lmao nope not much ppl do ash


doesn't n e one else have problems they'd lyke to get off their chest in here?

[robiskewl]

i've been there many a time. and it sucks...a lot. and you look for an easy way out...and just fall asleep thinking of all the ways to easily escape the problems. and then one day, you'll wake up and be fine.....i hope that your day comes soon...for its a dreadful place.

[AIRZ1]

Originally posted by robiskewl
i've been there many a time. and it sucks...a lot. and you look for an easy way out...and just fall asleep thinking of all the ways to easily escape the problems. and then one day, you'll wake up and be fine.....i hope that your day comes soon...for its a dreadful place.

I hope it comes tomorrow for everyone who is going through this spell.

[BlindSk8er]

Originally posted by Craig Himself


Little things like these lead me to hate myself. I hate the way i look, the way i act, i hate the fact that i cant get a gurlfriend, i hate the fact that im depressed and most likely suicidal alot because of people who put me down non stop and dont seem to care about me.



i feel the same way alot! like, if i died, would anyone even care/ or miss me?

[Snaker]

Originally posted by BlindSk8er
i feel the same way alot! like, if i died, would anyone even care/ or miss me? we would, man. just think, when you feel like that, think "the guys on RR care"

[chickaboarder13]

hah yah i think that thought alot- cept w/o the RR guys part... cause u guys would proly party if i was gone.. but newho if someone cares i do! :-P

[Snaker]

if we found out on here that a member died, we would mourn

[Craig Himself]

I would cos i have a big idea of what he/she was going through and i would of done something to myself as a punishment for not doin anything about it

[Ramp]